Finding identity in Christ's eyes, not the world's
Sometimes, when I am bored, I read beauty magazines. They tell you how to dress well, how to put your makeup on, and all what a “real woman” should know. I can spend hours in front of the computer looking at the beautiful outfits of the Hollywood celebrities and learning some beauty tips from them, and I have fun with that.
But then I get frustrated.
Am I like them? Can I be like them just a little someday? Am I able to buy all those expensive clothes? And if I do… are they going to fit me?
And the torture starts.
I´m sure most women have experienced this. But when I look at the Scriptures, I find something that gives peace to my heart:
God is more interested on my inner beauty.
He says: “Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.” 1 Peter 3:3-4
When I read this, many women come to my mind, women that have impacted my life for good--my grandmother, mother, my pastor, my youth leader, my awesome friends, and many others. They are all so precious to me, not because of their body or clothes but for this power that comes out from a woman with a beautiful heart.
I remember myself being in university trying to be this woman; I was so tired of studying engineering and not knowing what for. It was day and night studying and not obtaining the marks I would like, feeling that I was in the wrong place.
One day, I came to my pastor´s office and I told her, “I would be so happy if I could quit university and come to live here [the church] so you can teach me how to be a woman of God.”
She just laughed. I know my intentions were not bad; I wanted to be a better person, be more like Him, but maybe that was not the way.
So I gave up and started just seeking God and spending time with Him.
And He dressed me in the best outfit I could ever have.
He told me:
She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
It is not easy, and many times, I walk very far from this, but if I concentrate on Him and work on His business, I can rest in the fact that He becomes my personal image assistant.
I don't have to be worried of that anymore. He dresses me with unfading beauty.